I wish it was like my Prozac and like… built up in my system. And stayed there.
I want more than a few hours of clarity.
But it’s only the second day taking it. I need to give it time. Patience.
But I’m really paranoid. What if I don’t even have ADHD, so the medicine won’t work like it’s supposed to? Then what? That “clear” feeling was really scary at first. I didn’t know what it was. But now I’m back to normal and I don’t like it. My head is so busy and incoherent.
It’s kinda like when I got glasses for the first time, and I was looking around everywhere like, “Oh! This is what the world is supposed to look like? I’m supposed to be able to see all of this?”
It was a good feeling. I wish I’d had more time with it.